iHurt

Pain is all I know
Write now
No one cares
They think it's funny
(What's for dinner? Is that show on again?)
Fuck you

Your stupidity allows you to live and breath, my friend
My intelligence is a curse

This keyboard cost $50, and will never be as good as my old one
Because Steve Jobs was not an artist, he
Just a businessman
Steve wanted money money money
Not to help people like me
But to rape people like me
I hope he died knowing his life was a fucking waste
Just like mine

The little girl looked back at me like she wanted to hit me
For me having big feet
It took
One second
To see her past, present, and future
She was unhappy
Is unhappy
And will die unhappy
Thanks to her mom and dad

Was it worth it?
The extruciating back pain
Caused by all that watching?
No
It never is
Why did I do it?
I had nothing else to do

I wish it was over
It won't be for a long while
Will someone help me?
I knew you wouldn't

It'd be better if it wasn't

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Today is Sunday
and there's nothing to do

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The pain in my heart
Is bent

Windchill is bullshit

My life is hell

Torture torture torture
(What's for dinner? )
((Rape))

How can I ask my abusers to stop it
When they are having fun?

As long as they don't kill me they will continue
Because you/they/she can't see inside my veins
To read the ache
If there's a body, done twitching
Then that's a story
That's a show
As it is, my misery is funny
(what's for dinner?)
((more rape for you, kid))

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315 pounds
crushing my hips, knees, and ankles
I try to stand up
And have to suffer the pain

No matter what I do
The pain is there
When they turn it up
The pain gets worse
From a 2 to a 9

Can you imagine the worst day of your life
Lived over and over
For 45 years?
That's what it's like

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She thinks we're having a date
It's a sentence
For both of us

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If I could strangle my abusers
I wouldn't
Which means they'll keep abusing me
I wish I was dead
And buried

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They wake me after an hour of sleep
I fall again
They wake me after two hours of sleep
That's it for the night

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